#but it feels inherently sinful

[cacaocheri]

i feel like i’ve reached a new level of degeneracy every time i’m like “oh boy time to think about The Scenarios” and it’s just me holding hands with a fictional guy

[sammygender]

i’ve never been as angry on behalf of a character as i am for sam winchester

[uncanny-tranny]

I've been thinking about modesty from a specifically trans lense lately. I was taught that modesty indicates shame, that modesty means you're simultaneously ashamed of being human and having a human body, but also that you are "purer" because you adhere to a hegemonic idea of modesty. Frankly, I just don't agree with this, and it was very much steeped in the idea of specifically christian ideas of modesty.

Before I transitioned, I felt very unprotective of my body because it never felt like mine to begin with. I didn't really care what happened to it, and while I was modest by other people's standards, I certainly didn't feel it. Once I actually started transitioning (and especially on testosterone), I've found that I'm so much more "modest" because I've become protective of my body. There's this stereotype that trans people start "showing themselves off" after transitioning, but I honestly feel the opposite. I'm possessive over my body and exactly how it acts and appears because I actually like my body, and it finally feels like mine. I'm honestly kind of selfish about it, and I think I've earned the right to be.

I made this post because I think this is an interesting topic, and I think it's interesting the ways in which we internalize the influences that be. It's also a reminder that no matter how you feel about things like modesty, you should adhere to what makes the most sense to you and what you are most comfortable with. There are pressures to be modest in this way or that way, but what truly matters is what you decide with your body and yourself.

[imissthembutitwasntadisaster]

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[goldbeard-ceadeus]

Scar really has such an interesting face. He is so sharp and angular, unforgiving and rigid, but there are these little spots on the character that betray him. The corners of his jaw, the crest of his ears, even his brow is rounded when you look at it as one solid line. His clothes are all baggy and unkempt, just like his hair, betraying his intensity and stoicness. Heavily dislike when the fandom makes him so twinky.

I love Scar so much. Grief just oozes out of that man. He holds everything together to accomplish his goal. He must avenge his brother. His people.

And his moral dilemma is two fold with his brother LITERALLY being part of him. He must destroy. He HAS to destroy.

He must be the angel of death, if it means that he can be at peace with his brother, if only for a moment, or an eternity. He's still the boy his brother left him as, and he can't move past that for a majority of the series.

Scar is just a little boy, who wants his big brother. And he makes me so fucking sad.

FMA is about grief. No I will not take criticism.

[dreampearls]

scratches head i do think the way genshin approaches suicide/self sacrifice/martyrdom isnt super well integrated a lot of the time and it more often feels like a mechanic solely employed to make a character more sympathetic/likeable theres so much else you can do with it but (squints) idk i cant pinpoint it specifically but thr way genshin handles it feels tactless + dull + predictable at times

[widevibratobitch]

uh ohhhhhh getting all in my head again aha

[dnangelic]

i feel like dark has the tendency to disappoint one mun's expectations after another bc yeah he looks the way he does but then he's like. he's easy to rile up but it's difficult to actually get him to fight (because of daisuke) and he's never killed anyone + he's chaotic good and not human and his entire basis of theft operates on that so his morality turns blue and orange to some people + he's a flirt but as soon as anybody actually starts showing signs of interest in him all of his internal sirens and warning bells start going off so he starts to avoid them and push them away + a very real part of his true, legitimate personality is tsundere and awkward as hell + he's cringe + despite it all, the power of love is very real to him

[featherymainffins]

I know that a lot of people are helped by someone saying something like "All humans deserve to make mistakes." or idk "You have a right to live, all humans do." but for me it just triggers my knee-jerk cult upbringing response and I go "Oh I'm not a human."

[malkaviian]

due to. reasons. i am thinking about the logistics behind a vampire drinking a demon's or angel's blood

[corvidcall]

ive been feeling Pretty Bad lately, and imo the worst part of it is that shannon is also Feeling Bad, so we can't really do much for each other. and that seems really unfair imo. at least ONE of us should be functional!!!

[cruelsister-moved2]

sc below:

i hate this post wheneveri see it sorry lol i can smell the supersessionism. ‘there’s an old jewish story’ yep because judaism is just a quirky abstract reminiscence to help u fix the brokenness of ur own religion and not like a completely different religion with its own theology and philosophy unrelated to urs. there are no people it belongs to or thinkers it produces there is simply an ‘old story’ which you can now insert ur own very specific cultural understandings and theological baggage onto without wondering what the person who said that actually meant by it and if theywould enjoy u using it 2 talk about the guy who invented antisemitism n was forced down their throats for the next 2000 years 

[profoundnutheart]

am I asexual or is my dysphoria just so bad that I refuse to do anything sexual

[here-there-were-dragons]

all modern writing advice is optimized towards creating the most digestible and marketable mass-appeal piece possible, which everyone has decided is The Only Way To Do Art Right for some reason. i hate it, i fucking hate it so much, i had to stop listening to movie and art concrit videos because it became infuriatingly clear that literally no one has opinions of their own, they're just parroting from a list of How To Make The Most Marketable Thing that they heard from other criticisms, taken as gospel of The One And Only Way To Be Right, and have put no real actual thought into it themselves.

literally all of them now just boil down to "here's how this did/didn't follow the Standard Marketability Checklist to the exact letter. also at least a third of this essay is me randomly interjecting about how much i want to suck off puss in boots 2"

Every 21st century piece of writing advice: Make us CARE about the character from page 1! Make us empathize with them! Make them interesting and different but still relatable and likable!

Every piece of classic literature: Hi. It's me. The bland everyman whose only purpose is to tell you this story. I have no actual personality. Here's the story of the time I encountered the worst people I ever met in my life. But first, ten pages of description about the place in which I met them.

[lastoneout]

*grabbing young queer people by the shoulders* listen to me. radical feminism is inherently transphobic. you cannot rehabilitate it or reclaim it or make it trans inclusive, I don't care what the people on twitter who claim to be authorities on queerness say. the foundation of radical feminism is nothing but bio and gender essentialism and biphobia and aphobia and anti-kink rhetoric and intersexism and yes, misogyny. it does not offer a future, not for bi people, aroace people, sex workers, not for kinksters, or intersex people, cis women, or trans people regardless of gender and you should care about those people. it will never result in queer liberation because it is an ideology of exclusion and hatred. you gain nothing by buying into the idea that half the population is evil by birth or by transition. you gain nothing by acting like women are perpetual victims who can't think for themselves and are tainted by their association with men. being a man or being attracted to them is not a sin. if we truly want to stand a chance of dismantling the patriarchy we actually NEED men on our side especially marginalized men. they are our allies.

the problem with terfs is not just transphobia, it never was, the radical feminism is also so unbelievably harmful. you cannot save it and it will not save you, stop drawing lines between queer people and join hands with them instead. remove people who are actually harmful, not innocent people who happen to have the wrong sexuality or gender or job. we get there together or we don't get there at all. we need each other now more than ever. do not listen to those who seek to divide us even if they are queer. we all deserve so much better than the hell radical feminism pretends is a liberated future.

I do not blame anyone who fell prey to this rhetoric, I know it feels good to have a common enemy and lash out at those you think are siding with them however they do it, but men, especially marginalized men, are not your enemies. and it's never too late to realize that and change for the better.

[interactivefictionramblings]

In general, I must say I prefer Romance Club’s tracks to Lovestruck’s, but Lovestruck had some really good ones sometimes, like Amara’s Theme (Vocals). As for writing, though…from what I recall, I got drawn into LS more easily (which is part of why I connected to more F-LIs from Lovestruck than I do with RC, I suspect).

Like, I’m listening to the Queen of Thieves OST right now, and I’m getting thrown back to how absorbed I’d get into it’s words and characters.

I always, always, always struggled not to post a million screenshots and videos of it on here (of course, then the company decided to threaten it’s fans, and I had to get rid of all those posts, and keep to the limits they stated for posting stuff, so I just started a whole new blog, which is why if you go far back in this blog, you’ll see some text posts I reblogged from that old blog before I deleted it, with I think the same name? Anyway, I digress). The feel of the settings of the stories I played and loved have stayed with me, as perfectly engraved in my heart as LIs I played the routes of (even those I felt no spark with, because they were just so well-crafted).

The only posts with screenshots from LS you’ll find from this blog, had kept to the 5 pics, no videos, and no Heart (premium) scenes rules. It’s a terrible shame, but I still love those posts.

I go back to them often, tbh.

It’s really interesting actually. Lovestruck didn’t let you change clothes or choose your MC’s personality, but it never felt like a loss, because the writing more than made up for it (imo), so much so I never even thought about needing those things when reading. Sometimes when I was struggling to figure out how to afford Heart scenes, I’d even thank my luck that at least there wasn’t anything else to buy but these extra scenes, as I wasn’t tempted to purchase even more Hearts, asdfghjkl.

Anyway: closing remarks or whatever, I miss QoT’s MC, she was so fuckin’ relatable and cool. And I miss all the characters, and their bickering. And I can still feel the settings the story used, like their base (the home feeling of it), the individual rooms and how unique they were. When writing is done really well, it’s not just the swooning or heartbreaking scenes that get stuck w/ you forever, but even the sun on your MC’s skin when they walk outside eating ice cream, or the freezing rain during the night. You can even remember the smell of vanilla in one scene from the candles. It all sticks like a real memory in your mind, because you get so immersed your brain processes an experience.